I'm going through a little bit of a tough time right now. I am trying to keep things in perspective, I am trying to be strong, and I am trying to do the right thing despite the sense of dread I have over it. I knew there would be no happy ending when I got into this situation, but at the very least I am becoming stronger as I work some things out. And that is one thing I knew would result. I am learning that the things I want are not unreasonable requests. I am learning that I need more than I thought I would, but I'm beginning to believe that that's okay. I think I deserve a little bit more is all. And I think he's not willing to give that to me.
I've met a large dog named Brock. He belongs to my cousins. He's a German shepherd, and, still a puppy (he's a little over a year, I think), shows his excitement without jumping! That's what I'm talking about.
I take a different flavor of coffee creamer to work every week, and this week was International Delight's chocolate caramel. I took it yesterday, and my coworkers and I decided it was good enough to drink. Now, I am just in love with my coworker Josh. Josh (or anyone else for that matter), if you are reading this, please know that it is a platonic love, nothing more. And I promise I'm not trying to take you away from your girlfriend. But honestly, he's one of my favorite people in the world and this just makes me think even more highly of him. When I got to work today, he approached me and said that there was only a little creamer left and that he hid it in the fridge for me. How beautiful is that? Maybe it's not that big of a deal when you read this little anecdote from my day, but it sure made me smile.
I mean, think about it. We live in a world that's so rush rush rush, and at my job we are definitely a good example of chickens with their heads cut off. It's a restaurant where our clients are pretty well off, and we bust our butts and bend over backward to get them what they want when they want it. My friend Joshua took a little time out of his day to think that I might want some coffee creamer this morning, and actually made the effort to help me out with it. Again, maybe not a huge deal. But it still warms my heart nonetheless. I don't need diamonds. I don't need riches. Little things like that make me happy. Thanks, Josh.